is lackadaisical

something.

2011-08-03T10:21:00.002+08:00

so the reason i'm blogging at work is due to the fact that i am fuming mad. but this anger is nothing compared to the soreness in my throat.

yes, i screamed and screamed and screamed in class. let me just start on how I despise bringing kids to the computer lab. they turn into unattentive, slow monsters. today i decided to book a 1 1/2 slot so the kids can type a new piece of composition. my goodness they took so long! and i need to save all the work one by one. what's worse is there are a few who only managed to type one paragraph. and this is TYPING fyi ok not writing. and i've given the topic 2 days ago. how can i not be mad? bell rang, and there i was screaming like a mad woman.

but boy did i regret. my throat hurts now. and i'm fasting, so there goes my full pahala for the day.

something happened though, when i released the kids from the lab, a student cam back in, (i was alone in the lab) and she asked "Cikgu Shikin nak saya tolong apa-apa?"

I melted right there.

sigh.

2011-07-05T22:40:00.003+08:00

don't know how it's possible
but being in love (with you) is an understatement

long time.

2011-07-05T22:01:00.005+08:00

right. 2nd half of 2011. work's been ok. alhamdulillah, taking it day by day or programme by programme. 2 years of bond is up. 1 more and i can probably breathe easy. although it doesn't really make any difference. oh wells.

friends are still here and there. sadly, with some parties, it's just not the same anymore. in growing up, we actually grew further apart.

good news, chewy's a mummy. bad news, my biological clock is honestly ticking at an alarming rate. not helping that soo many pictures of new born babies are being posted by friends. yes, friend's/acquaintances' babies. sheesh i'm old. i have to stop myself from imagining i've already started a family. pathetic kan?

good news, siti's married. rozi's day is coming up. i'm so happy seeing them wedded one by one. bad news, (akupunnakkahwinjugak) haha. diam lah.

good news, we've taken another huge step. alhamdulillah. bad news, mesti save up kebabai. but insyaAllah we can do it :)

good news, hamz has grown. bad news, hamz has grown. but i love him too much.awww.

bad news, no one reads my blog anymore. good news, i still have an avid, loyal reader. HELLO ZAKI! =D

gravity-ed

2011-05-15T18:05:00.001+08:00

everybody knows
but nobody really knows
how to make it work
how to ease the hurt

i'm guessing i'm really cursed on sundays. not alternate, but really, every single sunday.

i have no idea why but i have the tendency to listen and scream to sara's gravity. i can't quite put a finger on what the song means, but it just pulls your heartstrings, no? maybe the song has the emotionally draining and painful aftereffect once you sing to it. just like mrazs' absolutely zero, jewels' foolish games and mayers' dreaming with a broken heart and slow dancing in a burning room.

so you can guess my songlist in emo-moments huh? don't get me wrong i'm entirely fine. or am i? how do you do it?really? tell me.

miss-ed

2011-04-12T22:12:00.003+08:00

loves it when you sleep over and i'd have to wake you in the morning for work

weekends,hurry up now.get this hectic week filled with unnecessary emotional rides over and done with.

who are we kidding eh?

3 more days to breakfast.

4 more to entirely you.

oh stoppit.

the good, the bad

2011-04-10T21:51:00.001+08:00

what hurts the most?

25, really. yikes.

sundane

2011-03-27T21:22:00.002+08:00

can't do sundays without you :( shift's a bitch.

dua puluh enam

2011-03-17T13:43:00.010+08:00

so muster turned 26 yesterday. same time last year, i was up on Mount K haha. So this year, kena celebrate with the man himself hor?

basically, i'm pretty useless when it comes to planning. so he came up with the idea of visiting a place we've only been to once, which was ages ago.

the thing is, it was supposed to be lunch or breakfast by the beach at sentosa. yes, i cooked. haha. i'd have to say it tasted awesome. HAHA. and notice the 2 prawns shaped macam heart tu? OMG, sweet kan aku? hehehehe.

but our lazy bums macam malas nak pack the food, so we decided to just eat at my place. i know. this situation has cropped up a gazillion times for us, so we're pretty used to our kemalasan :)

went to sentosa where he was prettay excited seeing this cineblast ride thingy. i must admit, i was, too, until after the ride. haha. totally not worth the money. but, anything for the birthday guy, on his birthday (only). other days, lu rilek sua mat.

and off we went to underwater world! he got to touch a stingray and some other weird looking fishes. eww.

look at that heeyuuuggeeeasssfish!

suka lah kau eh.

and off we went to just lepak by the beach, eating ice kacang and keropok nangka.

and kena bully.

i hope you had fun, muster. not bad lah kan your off days spent with me? haha. hope your new work shift's not bitchy. i pray for all things good for you, insyaAllah.

work hard, be healthy, stay happy, save money.

then we can go kahwin. oh tak eh?

insyaAllah, ameeen :)

:(

2011-02-13T15:19:00.004+08:00

sometimes i wish my profession allows me to take leave when i really want and need a break.
it's only coming to week 7 of the year and i'm drained out.these pending things i have, are only for this term. even more to come with the double preggies in the dept. sigh. i'm going to have people breathing down my neck supersoon. i have so many papers to settle. i have things other than my subject matter to think about. loootts of them, goodness!
seems like i've been thrown so many things this year, i better have a great lot of self motivation or i might really, really pancet rabak halfway :(

thanks a lot to my homeland for the expensive cost of living. i guess i'm never allowed to stop working,ever :(

thanks a lot to boss who's really making it so difficult for diploma holders to earn a lot despite the same amount (or probably more) of work. come to think of it, i'm miserly paid and getting a degree would really really burn a hole in my pocket. orang kata ada degree baru boleh rasa lah gaji tu. ya Allah, tabahkanlah hambamu ini.

on a really, really brighter note, my fiance(omg i can laugh just by typing that. fiance, weird or what?!) is on his way to get his license.i'm proud of you muster, Alhamdulillah :) that's something awesome to think about.tapi with great power, comes great responsibility. and less time, less time for me. boohoo.

ok enough ranting. have a lot of work to do.

i wish every weekend's like this. minus the workload.thanks.

honestly

2011-02-07T00:03:00.004+08:00

one, i should stop having too idealistic views. two, we must be better people. three, patience.

and the list goes on. a change of status and an inevitable argument sets in. but it still amazes me how we settle these things by just saying what's on our minds. and it's really a bonus when there's a cooler, more calm and collected one between the two. which, isn't me by the way.

being the centre of attraction is scary to tell you the truth. god knows the number of times i sighed after smiling so much at the endless number of shots taken none other than family members and friends. haha. but seeing the faces of friends, the hardwork put in by my family members (and my lovely girls), is really just too beautiful. i love every single one of these people and i'm feeling totally humbled and grateful to have them around me. thank you is an understatement. all of you are in my prayers :) :)

to mus, we can say or plan whatever we want, ultimately the decision is His. in the mean time, we'll work together whatever we are hoping for, insya Allah. weird but i love you even more the next morning i woke up after our engagement. =)

thank you for making and keeping me happy.

thank you too for changing ur seat in Mac just coz u didnt want ur attention to go to the TV.

ily.

tiga hari

2011-01-31T12:17:00.001+08:00

been raining three days non-stop.

feeling jittery all over already.
is it the cold?
or the upcoming event?

haaaaaaa.

be careful this rainy season,one and all :)

week four

2011-01-23T23:42:00.002+08:00

like every other goodbyes, such sweet sorrow.

wish we could laze on the couch, watching tv like this, everyday.

too bad, reality's not in our favour. could be a looong week.

other than that. yah, that was it. :)

idea

2011-01-20T15:40:00.004+08:00

Penyanyi: Ahli Fiqir
Tajuk Lirik Lagu: 2x5

kwekk..kwekk.kwekk.kwekk..kwekk...

Kali Bagi Tolak Campur
Habislah geli kerana geletek
Hilanglah resah kerana biasa
Kerana telah terbiasa
Geli dan resah tidak akan lagi terasa
Semut di seberang lautan Kau nampak
Bila gajah di depan mata Kau buta..

Lebih sudu dari lauk
Lebih tunjuk dari tengok
Lebih diri dari duduk
Lebih cawan dari mangkuk

Berkata-kata jangan lupa
Banyak yang bertukang di mata dan Mulut
Sedikit sahaja yang Menukang di tangan
Bangkai gajah busuk di hutan
Hendak di tanam
Pekong di kaki sendiri dibiarkan
Busuk oh..Pekong , Kurap, kudis, nanah, kayap.. eeiii..

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

kwekk..kwekk.kwekk.kwekk..kwekk...
Duduk diam tunggu dulu
Kunci mulut nanti dulu
Sebelum kau berbicara
Sebelum kau nak berkata
Cermin dulu hujung rambut
Hingga ke hujung hujung kuku kakimu

Kurangkan lada kurang pedasnya
Kurangkan rempah kurang panasnya
Kurangkan lebah kurang sengatnya
Kurangkan cakap kurang silapnya

Baik membisu takut takut
Mana tahu silap hari
Silap bulan lambat laun
Silap tahun kau menjadi

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh
Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Jangan cakap lepas
Biar pandai beralas
Ada ubi ada batas
Ada hari kami balas
Hinamu hanya bias
Cercamu cuma tempias
Hari ini kami berkias
Esok lusa kami mengganas

Jangan suka jaga tepi kain orang lain
Kain sendiri yang terlondeh
Kata dulang paku serpih
Kata orang dia yang lebih
Ada orang suka menerima
Tapi tidak suka menderma
Ada orang suka menderma
Tapi diharap dibalikkan semula

Dua kali lima sepuluh
kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh
Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh
Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

kwek..kwek..kwek..kwekk.kwekk..

if last 2 years i exposed my p5s (gosh i miss them) to Alhamdulillah by Too Phat, how about this one for this year. Say, scholar class? Idea eh?

oh and work's piling, news, not so great, but we're all looking at the brighter side aren't we?

:) in love and out of love.
podah.

2011-01-17T23:01:00.002+08:00

because if i could, i would have slapped you real fucking hard.

there's two sides of every story.
silap sendiri mana nak nampak kan?

pffft.

2011-01-13T23:36:00.003+08:00

with all these huge responsibilities thrown to me work-wise, i seriously don't need another problem. so thanks a lot.

dua ribu sebelas

2011-01-03T15:56:00.002+08:00

setahun sudah kita lalui perhubungan ini...

sayang sama lu, huge stomach and all :)

2010-12-29T01:06:00.002+08:00

God grant us patience.
God grant us peace. of mind. and heart.

test number one.

2nd last

2010-12-20T15:55:00.005+08:00

mendak. haha. pretty much sucks that i'm still in singapore and will be in singapore til the end of holidays. probably 2 more weeks to buy some new clothes or probably comfy shoes for work. I've yet to clean the room(s) though. so that's one itinery not done. i've bought a journal for us, and wrote down stuff, so at least that's moving somewhere. i've cooked but only cooked stuff i already knew how to. i've also realised how much bawang putih can make a difference in the taste of food. at least mine haha. oh yes, and a winner here, i actually cooked, with mom's help of course, ayam lemak cili padi. baik shikin!and along the way, i've released my short temperedness which does not really prove to be healthy. sabar. :)

i had difficulty sleeping for days because i have urges for the toilet. i pee-ed constantly and alarmed myself. got my pee checked for nine bucks. turns out it's infection. had to complete my rounds of antibiotics which caused me headaches, or probably it's the usual headaches i keep getting. another medicine which looks like urine and taste pretty wild. but at least the urges are decreasing tremendously, alhamdulillah. get yourself checked early if things like this happen to you people.i lived with it for probably a month. not such a good idea.

went for hollywood after hours, which was really, a huge anti climax. yes, i'm too cheapskate for USS. furthermore, i'm a scaredy cat. got no balls for rides man. the fireworks was ok, but kinda hurt our eyes looking directly at them aha. the food, gawd. need i say more? but then again, five bucks.plus three for monorail. takpe, kita belajar.

zah's only coming back on new year.tick tock tick tock. that being said, 2011's gonna be a pretty heart pumping year. work and everything else. Don't despair, never lose hope, coz Allah is always by your side :) yah, from Maher Zain hee :) Insya Allah you'll find your way. we'll find our way :)

there are certain people
you just keep coming back to
:)

hidup bahagia

2010-12-08T23:58:00.003+08:00

maaf sayang, i percaya teman i dari kata-kata you yang berputar belit tu. memang otak you bergeliga lah, i tak suka. tapi i percaya, setiap orang mesti pernah kecundang.

jangan sampai yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran.

satu je i nak tanya you, berapa ramai you rasa you boleh kaup?

at its best

2010-12-03T17:02:00.002+08:00

oh me goodness.i have a feeling i might rot till holidays are over.this week alone, i've been to geylang TWICE! yes. my mother is taking advantage of me. i should start planning for productive days or i might get depressed. but macam mana nak start eh? hmmm knowing me, i might procrastinate, thinking of what should be done and ta-da! holidays are over. perangai kan?

so pikiran punya pikiran, i did some thinking lah.what i think i should do this holidays, since i'm not going anywhere.gawd! how sad is that!ok here goes. disclaimer: whether i do it or not, is seriously up to my mood.

clean my room. ok both rooms. this itself might take 2 weeks. one week to mentally prepare myself. few days after that to complain about the mess, which could be mine (or not) and the next few days to finally do it.
source out school stuff for next year. since i already know which levels i'd be teaching, in which one of them would probably kill me, i should go think of awesome strategies to use. but then again, it has always been nato or mostly reaally spontaneous plans. hmm. we shall wait and see.
probably get a journal for mus and me. no no, not to jot down our lovey dovey mushy stories, or lackthereof huahuahua. to calculate stuff like duit hantaran, mak andam, duit rumah. AHH just kidding. small calculations, like our budget which we neevveerr seem to adhere to, our kilograms hurhurhur, things to take note of... sounds cool eh? hahah taaappiiii.... :) :)
meet ups with people. now is da time to really catch me peeps. really. lain masa, jangan complain.
belajar masak mungkin? haahaaahaaahaaahaahaahaaa don't laugh. i am for real.

hmm i don't know what else? amacam? sounds like a good plan?

so now, anybody wanna motivate me to start with any of those? i'd be grateful :)

enjoy the weekends the rest of you!

pun intended.

2010-11-22T23:45:00.008+08:00

on our second first date,

we had dinner at Seoul Garden (a first for him.alalala)
we intended to watch a movie at Great World City (a first for us.alalala)

yes, i mentioned intended. heh. minutes before the movie, we realised we lost the movie tickets. bummer i tell you. haha. dah takdir. lets continue..

we had backup plan! to go back to my place and take the bike, watch a midnight movie somewhere else.
but lo and behold, as i was walking down the stairs in the bus, i tripped. and my stupid shoes gave way. needless to say, it was paiseh tahap maksima.my heel is still in the damned bus.
fret not. since we're already at my place, why not go change to a pair of slippers or something right?
but no, upon reaching home and seeing dad so engrossed in the soccer matches, mustafa noor bin adnan decided to join dad....to watch soccer....at home..
so yah,that's the end of my much anticipated second first date.

kesian eh? but we made it up on sunday. impromptu's the best :)

kat sini handsome seh mamat ni.

and of course, his pretty girlfriend.(shysmile)

kat rumah pun jadilah.hmph.

lama-lama blog ni jadi musandme.blogspot.com

sunnay

2010-11-15T22:59:00.002+08:00

Heyho. guess what? it's the last week of school!

i've got great news to share! my lunchtime talent thingy which i've been procrastinating for probably 3 terms finally took place.haha. albeit having it for....4 days probably a fifth and last one tomorrow, I'd like to say it's a success. So yay Groovy Recess Time! It's amazing what music can do huh? I have special kids grabbing the mic and singing to Justin Bieber! :) nice.

and my P4 scholar class. yay. alhamdulillah. it's done. payment je belum settle. mudah-mudahan on top of having fun, the kids learnt something :)

school this year has taught me a lot. I think I grew a lot too. full load, hectic CCA, projects, admin. wow. Alhamdulillah. It's an awesome year.

holidays are around the corner. think it's time to catch up with friends. :) or those who really, sincerely wanna catch up. hah!

and and believe it or not, mus and me. we've been dating for a year. wow eh? haha. annndd wait for it,this year,on the same day when we first dated..we quarreled! hahahaha ok dah tu je. i love it that we're finally a normal couple. hurhurhur ;p

:)

2010-10-28T22:52:00.002+08:00

today,he surprised me with a sandwich. :)

tonight, i thought,
i wanna go everywhere it takes me, with him.

i know.i'm so sappy.

it's about time we take notice of our own blessings aye?

someone like you

2010-10-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

have i been selfish all these while? i guess not having things to do tonight kinda jolt my emobone for a moment. ok wait, correction. i do have things to do. just don't feel like doing them tonight. ok back to my thoughts. i miss my friends. tell me, have i been selfish? have i been spending way too much time with him that i forget my friends? believe me, i wouldn't wanna do that and if friends have been feeling that way, then i pray, do tell. coz i dunno. i've not had updates. i've not received random smses since forever. and it's really emotionally draining coz i know i have been asking for meetups, but negative replies just kill.you.slowly don't they?i know we all have responsibilities to fill but is it so difficult to make time for a really short meetup? how about making the first step? just informing when there's no class? tuition? meetings or whatever.and don't even try saying i spend every waking moment with him.

the fact is, you didn't even bother to ask.

:(

updated

2010-10-13T14:37:00.006+08:00

aha. i'd probably be blogging once a month now, considering how "exciting" my life has been thus far. need updates from my side?

school's been fine.super hectic and fast term.psle's over. which means tuition's over. which also means there goes my extra income. week 5 is ending.there's only one day on week 6 coz the rest are for psle marking. revision hasn't started.i'm rushing to complete the books. = i'm dead.

i have yet to start on my miniproject.i have no idea how to start it, how to do it, when to do it. and school is ending. and there's review for the year after school term = i'm dead.

i'm worried for my p6 kids. 7 kids in class means higher percentage for each kid. Having kids with different diagnosis means cannot expect too much from them = i'm dead.

life's good.

stuff happened. made me question so many things. i guess sometimes when people let out things when they were angry, they were actually keeping all those inside: tolerating.

and when things get out of hand, everything else comes out. scary huh? not just that. it's ugly too. -_-

he taught me something. when someone makes you angry, you rationalise your thoughts. if you were in that person's shoes,will you do the same thing? why do you think that someone made you angry? why are you so worked up in the first place? sigh it doesn't really matter actually. ego's a bitch lah. we should really just relax and be rational about stuff. and seriously, forsaking friendship over petty arguments are just plain bull.

i haven't been meeting friends lately. everyone has commitments. won't dwell on that.

watched kham's performance. it's really funny coz while i was watching her on stage,i realised 53 days is a loong time.and i know i'm gonna miss this girl a lot. We might not see each other often but we do random updates, and now,close to 2 months. :( she'll come back safe and sound, with awesome experience for sure. insyaAllah.

zahillah and amin. i am so glad these two are coming back, end of the year. then we're all a complete family again. can't wait to see how much they've changed and everything. and we're older. definitely we'll talk abt more serious stuff.or not. hahahaha. but i do miss these guys a lot.thank god for facebook where i can see your updates. korang macam having more 'life' than us in singapore. boohoo.

as for love. as much as we'd wanna make it perfect, there's bound to be obstacles and flaws along the way. at least we found our biggest obstacle haha. now you can't say it's honeymoon period already kannnn?kan? kan? kan? haha. i'd say time past by too fast. still feels like we're two kental beings sending up to over hundred smses to each other each day. we're still doing that by the way. we shd get ourselves blackberries huh? (yalah he cannot have a hp with camera) at least our smses to each other are free. save siket duit. :p

there could be more updates but yah, i kinda lost my drive to blog for now.just received an sms. alhamdulillah. in a few months, i'm a godmama! =) =) =) =)

to more

2010-10-03T23:48:00.002+08:00

months of high bills, non-stop smses and a whole lot of misses.

tenth month.and i love you,really.

more to come, insyaAllah.

:)

ass-ur-ance

2010-09-13T23:08:00.003+08:00

had a chat with an old friend and he asked me for updates."damn you guys are fast!" his exact words. this coming from someone who's been with his partner for yeeaaarrss (poly,mind you) and believe me, a long distance relationship most of it. still faithful till now. yes, i salute them for that. but then he asked me. "how do you know it's the one? is there really the one? or is it just someone?" ahhh damn you friend, got me thinking again.

and then he added. "i had this conversation with my gf. then we asked ourselves whether we're together, still, because of love or merely convenience."

my god. will it come to this after years and years of being together? you mean you've been together for soo long and you're not assured? whhhhhhhhhhyyyyyyy!

bugged the shite out of me til i can't friggin sleep on a schoolnight. :(

then of course i had to clear my mind.
siapa lagi nak layankan aku kan.

:):)

kambu.
insyaAllah.

2010-09-01T14:39:00.002+08:00

overwhelmed by the love received yesterday. kids. despite the screams and nags, sanggup juga korang :)

you, despite your fatigue, sanggup :)

NIE peeps, tonight after probably a tad too long.yay! :)

kekeks, cepatlah semua. rinduu.

trust me all those who matter, thank you is not enough.

sincere love from the heart.

2010-08-31T17:07:00.000+08:00

tonight. i miss you so.

taybel.

2010-08-16T21:45:00.005+08:00

my beautiful mess.

the bunga mangga. the smiley flower (kalau tak ambik gambar bunga ni terbalik,can't even see the face). kamus dewan (so it's veeery convenient), and the "Cikgu Paling Relaks" cert given during our ML staff retreat last year. i think this year dapat "Cikgu paling selekeh".TAPI! rambut dah tak selekeh sebab dah rebond! hahahahahahahhaa. diam ah.

blurr.

2010-08-16T12:32:00.004+08:00

It’s not about who you’ve been with, it’s about who you end up with. Sometimes, the heart doesn’t know what it wants until it finds what it wants. -The Office

i know. my posts have been too mushy of late. can't help it (haha) trust me people, I still do have my difficult days, I still do rant and complain a lot, I still scream in class, I still sleep on the way home from school,I still get my crappy moodswings and as much as whenever possible, I still meet my friends :)

so here I am, having stacks of worksheets and of course my beloved composition scripts to mark but I just can't find the drive to do so. My worktable is a beautiful mess. Ok who am i kidding, my worktable is a mess,not beautiful but got bunga rampai from racial harmony day last 3 weeks? hahahaha. It has papers allll over the place but the good thing is, I can find what I want in this mess. me, untidy.organised. maaacaam paham. which is of course why the parents always scream their lungs out to get me (and sisters) to clean our rooms. but really, bigger space = more mess. more trays/ compartments/ drawers = semakin banyak benda. and i will clean when i feel like it. so tolong jangan paksa :)

i'd have to seek apologies from friends.it's really difficult for me to iftar away from home which is why I haven't been planning any iftars outside. what's even better is I have tuition on most days, so lagi susah nak jumpa. and no i won't be a hypocrite and say that this whole ramadan i'm gonna buka at home.but as much as possible, i'd rather do that. i'm fine with supper though,so jangan kecik hati and ingat i favouritism ok :)

ah i dah malas nak type. i tink i lost my flair in writing. ah yer aku puji my writings sometimes. kadang-kadang jealous tgk org yg ada tumblr. any quotes deemed appropriate to use in current situations, they'd post and go from there. as for me, i'd go look for quotes and end up just looking for quotes. menyamps.oh wells, that's it i guess.

fight the djins within you. happy fasting :)

oh and i'll let you feast ur eyes on my workstation soon ;p
that is, if i'm not lazy.
adios.

untuk romeo 2

2010-08-03T16:03:00.003+08:00

http://lovesheekeane.blogspot.com/2009/08/untuk-romeo.html

untuk romeo 1 (30/8/2009)
sudah terang lagi bersuluh
kau memang manusia bodoh
abeh aku ni pulak sikit pei bebal
selalu nak layankan
kau punya hal ehwal
dah berkali-kali kau mainkan aku
si minah ni pun satu
kesian, kesian ah, kasi chan
kena ultimate bomb,
sekarang dah menyesal
takde harapan konon
kau ingat aku nak percaya lagi?
dah berbuih mulut aku dol
nampak gayanya,
kau nak kena taik lagi :)

untuk romeo 2 (present)

mummy rambut blonde: dulu benci, menyampah,macam nak maki je bila nampak kat luar.

romeo: padan muka ah. sekarang dah sayang.

ha.ha. ada chan dulu dah miang.(paiseh)

got yoko-yoko?

2010-08-03T15:38:00.003+08:00

backstage crew

'Upgrade' the musical

Post-Upgrade: dah tua. badan dah tak larat. pinggang sakit sampai sekarang.

koyok-ed.

sad truth, really.

2010-07-18T16:00:00.001+08:00

swensens with my favourite people. =)

pam and jim forever

2010-07-09T13:32:00.002+08:00

coz all office fans have been waiting for this moment.
waiting with jim :)

“Four years ago I was just a guy who had a crush on a girl who had a boyfriend. And I had to do the hardest thing I ever had to do, which was just to wait. Don’t get me wrong I flirted with her. Pam, I can now admit in front of friends and family that I do know how to make a photocopy. I didn’t need your help that many times. And do you remember how long it took you to teach me to drive stick? (Pam: Like a year). I’ve been driving stick since high school. For a really long time that’s all I had. Little moments with a girl who saw me as a friend. And a lot of people told me I was crazy to wait this long for a date with a girl who I worked with, but I think, even then I knew, I was waiting for my wife.”

awwwww number one.

“I bought those boat tickets the day I saw that YouTube video. I knew we’d need a back up plan. The boat was actually Plan C. The church was Plan B. And Plan A was marrying her a long, long time ago. Pretty much the day I met her.”

awwwww number two.

congrats guys :)

yaya, i know. tv only.

2010-07-05T23:57:00.001+08:00

i'm totally afraid whatever i let out to people will jinx it, or jinx us.

but, let me tell you this..

i'm gaining weight and i'm in love. heeh =)

fumed

2010-06-19T01:27:00.004+08:00

you know what can get you (or me in this case) deafening mad? when a question was asked and all you people caught up with the bloody TV can't even answer. ya fark right the question was random but hell, it's just plain rude, no? serve you people right for getting an ignorant, oblivious me then.

tungguls aside, school's starting. maybe that's why it's pretty angsty over here. i'd like to think i've mellowed a bit, though. yada yada yada yah f it.

the getaway was great. goddamnexpensive but could probably be just what i needed. well few days in kay-el or wherever wouldn't hurt too. =) but get this, i did the flying fox thingy. yah me, pengecotnakmampos and i jumped from a 15m height. kinda coolstuff aye? but what's waaayy cooler? i drove the ATV lar, with a pillion at the back (!) haha. i am contented i tell you. he showed how my face lit up, exaggerated or not, i believed it coz you have no freaking idea how much i wanna ride on those things. ahh yes! achieved! =)

to many more places babe(s) :)
insyaAllah

btw it's kinda crazy how we're reminding each other to save up, only to spend soo much on food. dasar perangai budak gemoks.

2010-06-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

i had a terrible cough and he blamed himself for smoking in front of me.

and since then,

no

more

smoke

breaks.

(awwwwww)

work-life balance

2010-05-22T13:09:00.005+08:00

updating the blog's a sucker by the way. kinda lost the urge to update occassionally. not that nothing's great been happening in my life. in fact, i'm in so much drama almost everyday it's getting too draining. and all i wanna do is to forget about what just happened. let go. let it go.

:)

shit and bitches aside. life's been great.met up with the old people and realise age is reaaally catching up on us. (playwright's web was 10 years ago,fyi.daymn).work's ok. i procrastinated a task for 2 terms, the kaypee's gonna blacklist me already. but hell. the upcoming moozeeker is sucking my soul. the body's working but the mind's taken a rest already. and i stank and looked crappy and i saw you, sitting there for two whole hours, just waiting, with a smile on your face that immediately spreads on mine and all da fatigue and heartache are gone.

ahhh i humbly admit i'm now clingy, cornycheesy and has the potential to be whiny at times.

well, met diy kt yesternight. reached home at 3am. gone were the days where attendance was full, every week.i think it just takes a little bit of effort lah. hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih. and friends don't go missing just like that. friends?

ok i should go find something to wear. heh heh heh. btw, you're a keeper. for a sole fact that you tahan my busokdahpenatnakmamposface, fresh pimples (yes not one pimple. it's pimpleSS),unkempt hair,homeclothes,perangaipemalasjahanamdraggingmywords. :)

annndd wait for iiittt... best thing yet..

Some girl with an arrogant face and a cannot be bothered attitude.One who's in love with love.Loves simplicity, humour and intelligence. Oh and sincere smiles too.Make an effort.Get to know her.

remember that? adam brody time? haa ya. that was about me. yes, about me. not you.
seriously, find some other words to describe yourself, girl.

love!

2010-05-13T23:58:00.000+08:00

kalau tangan berkaki, siang-siang tangan dah jalan.

2010-04-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

i miss doing nothing.

glee!

2010-04-14T22:03:00.004+08:00

that turned out fine :) i now have an ambitious, prettay cool mini project in my hands. i just need some motivation and of course a lil but more self confidence please.

ok i need to plan smtg for June. getout. seriously.

btw glee's so awesome.

post ni berterabuh

2010-04-12T22:48:00.003+08:00

you know the feeling when u keep pushing yourself so hard everyday just to survive something, having all these selfmotivation cheers in your head, only to be reeeeaaaally drained out once it's over?

yes. i'm having this feeling. but i can't stop and not do anything because crucial times are coming. :( sometimes i just wanna run you know. or sit down. or lie down. and not do anything. at all. just remaining silent.

i think you came at the right moment. which is why i treasure my saturdays.however, i stil have this sinking feeling coz it's like i'm just running away. then come sunday, i'll start to panic coz work.is.still.not.done. but hell, i need a break. and dear cintas, you people need a break too.

no new messages in my eyecon email inbox means good news.i swear.more mails means more workload. fug i tell u.

guess you can really tell by now that i am tired. and ranting. and time of the month is prolly coming soon. yah.

wish me luck.i'm gonna say smtg honest and revamp the whole thing coz i'm just too tired. too too tired.

merungut.

sooo much :)

2010-04-11T23:52:00.005+08:00

satu jam saja, ku telah bisa
sayangi kamu kamu kamu di hatiku...

JANGAN NAK BEDEK.

anyways that line memang don't hope on it too much :)

loved my friday night and the whoollleeee of saturday :) thanks to those who bothered :)

much love to everyone. this blog might die soon.

and screw work. i wanna sleep :)

dah 24 nampak?

nabs-ey.

2010-03-22T23:18:00.004+08:00

try being there and thinking of the welfare of at least 28 kids. who can seriously ramble on and on and on nonstop.

try climbing up and down with a bunch of weak and sickly, almost fainting kids.

then you can talk about me having it EASY (with a demeaning tone, no less, i might be overly sensitive but whothefark cares) because
1) it's free
2) food's taken care of

and that your grandmother also can climb.

kawan, tak kawan. kadang-kadang lelaki should just diam.

babi. kiang loho mai gay kiang

conquered

2010-03-20T15:41:00.006+08:00

guess what i did during the March holidays?

nyeh heh heh heh heh.

4095.2m above sea level man. honestly, i've never felt so motivated and challenged in one day. but alhamdulillah..mount Kinabalu, checked!ehem!

and amidst my closet fear of heights and falling to death (like seriously takut nauzubillah),

conquered world's highest and Asia's first via ferrata! ehem!

steady ah Cikgu Shikin. lu macam survivor ah! :)

and you :) i cannot even explain my emotions when i saw you there. korang semua nak cakap aku kental ke honeymoon ke korang punya pasal ah k. but my current favourite person, u just earned yourself like 6362574 points. =)

you idiot.

2010-03-12T00:49:00.000+08:00

ini mat sudah menang lor.

mvp

2010-03-08T00:09:00.002+08:00

because it's great that the one week break is finally here, okay one week from now. coz we toh-tal-ly need a rest. but no, i'm climbing up a mountain. but i don't really care coz i'm more worried about my extensive sudden growth of pimples on my face those without pimples should really try to grow some, go, add some colourful words to your life.nabei bunch of lucky flawless skinned people.

and i really really wanna see you. the you, now. coz it is going to be so exciting i swear more pimples will grow on my face. and it's all your fault. yours. but it's a short lived thingy. coz i might just give a HMMPH rolls eyes look and wish you all the best for this path u choose. suka jadi hypocrite? darl, got brain, use. thanks.

must meet the girls soonest.

and you too, of course.

:):)

kuchengs

2010-03-03T00:12:00.002+08:00

a lot of exciting stuff's been happening/ has happened but i just can't seem to find the time to blog. my mind and heart should have fingers of their own. and of course a laptop with internet connection.

now that would be perfect.

2010-02-21T18:08:00.002+08:00

i am still here, if you ever need me ok.

life oh life

2010-02-20T21:12:00.004+08:00

amidst the kecoh-kecoh of work and the likes,

kekeks had a FAB tell-all slumbersession :)
zahillah left us to get her masters :(
spent a day with amin :)
before he leaves :(
finally watched fcuking awesome MUSE, live! :)
kiky associated his life with characters on TV :X
idah went on a date :)
rozi, kham, chewy, liza, anip, zah were missed :(
awal's confusing :X
balik-ed kampung :)
tried riding on a bike and almost fell. -_-
met the NIE lovelies and lepaked for a while :)
Taufiq left for Perth. or was it Melbourne? Auckland? :(
mairah loves taufiq loves mairah :)
diva got her license. hooray! :)
diyana is lost!! i sms her she never reply. i is very sad :( :(
i fell in ultimate-like-could-lead-to-love-anytime :) :)

heeee. ok bye. much love.

heritage walk

2010-01-31T23:48:00.003+08:00

i actually muttered some words when i looked at you.
might just be a spell. =)

you.is.amazing.lah.

let's mosi b4 cny. makcik misses us.

:) :) :)

i hate this part

2010-01-25T15:28:00.001+08:00

why do i feel stuck?
why do i feel like moving?

goodness me i'm such an arse.

nicole scherzinger terpekik-pekau,current.

costlee

2010-01-20T22:10:00.001+08:00

1819 messages. $113.77.

tangisan dalam ketawa.

motivate

2010-01-12T00:40:00.002+08:00

so nauseating these butterflies. that rush. play it. again and again and again. repeatedly. elevated. so high up. bye bye world. let me get lost. in this one for now.

twisted

2010-01-03T02:24:00.002+08:00

layanlayanlayanlayanlayantaklayantaklayanlayanlayantaknaklayanlayanlayanlayantaknaklayanlayanlayanlayanmelayanmelayanmelayandilayandilayandilayanmelayandilayanmelayanmelayangmelayanglayanglayangsayanglayanmelayandilayan.

confession

2010-01-02T02:16:00.001+08:00

oh, dear.

:) :)

sunshine

2009-12-28T00:59:00.005+08:00

so i guess i have to let him go. my plug in baby. u stared at me blankly. and then u left. just like that.but i'll be seeing you again love, i will. i can't let go just yet.

and you, whoever said material things would please me? you just need to be youyouyouyouyou.

and you, i love you ok. and i'm here for you. i'm not leaving, baby.

ok siapa boleh guess aku berbual pasal siapa-siapa, dia menang.

I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
- Innocence, Avril Lavigne

senyum double punyaaaaaaaaa. :) :)

flame

2009-12-24T01:49:00.003+08:00

pretty much sucks that school's in like next week. as much as my head refuse to have this dumbass countdown, i can't run away lah hor? anyways, it's a psychological thing. if i dread it, it'll definitely suck big time. not that now i'm looking forward to it. but seriously, we can't stop this, so girl, stop your whining nonsense :)

so last week was indeed awesome. how about this one? for a start, NIE girls slept a night at JB. ahh niceeeee. the awesome food at night sampai semua terbongkang. the weird sleeping habits, and just weird habits especially with the wax. hehe. best. susah betul nak meet semua sekali. so i guess, this one made up for it. but i demand more. thanks. =)

meeting the cousins tomorrow!yay!and i heard there's a new year plan. waaay cool. =)

kekeks on friday. woah. this i tell u is reunition. it has beeen maha-mega-long that we've seen each other and we better enjoy every single minute making a fool of ourselves. i really really cannot wait (to disturb idah). yaaaaay!! sayang much! =)

then i'm off to egypt on saturday. jumpa fahri lah ni. =)

kalau hari-hari jelak macam mana?notacheapthrill.notacheapthrill.shikin tolong jangan buat perangai.

ok much love.

wedded

2009-12-19T15:02:00.001+08:00

one down. gone to the other side. the other side. =)

and yesterday was nice, after a long long long long time. sepuluhjam.sangatsuke.

ok bye.

one more awesome week.

boh-tan-nick garland

2009-12-16T01:44:00.001+08:00

tadi best. i suka.

then i realised i've been too happy i forgot my KT love.

KT, i demand you and me time!!

2009-12-11T02:38:00.003+08:00

shikin selalu buat andaian eh? :)

exactly how u put it. mintak maaf lah banyak-banyak yer.

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're going to get it right
If you put your weapon down

If you want more love,
Why don't you say so?

~abang John Mayer, heartbreak warfare.

berbual sorang

2009-12-04T01:00:00.002+08:00

this torment, did i put you through it?

awak tahu kita tak pening? tak demam? kaki sakit balik la

sekarang aku yang pening. nampak sah kental.

siok.ajer.

2009-12-03T13:18:00.003+08:00

siot ah romantic ke ape engkau?

and i'm not reassured, beb.
macam mana ni?
and i'd be lying if i say i didn't anticipate.

dasar!menyamps.

go.

2009-12-01T01:55:00.003+08:00

getting a bit too close for comfort when shite happens (yet again) will be aching solo at the losing end. that turned out pretty fine. we'd try two days. without any forms of technocommunication. if Godwilling things turned out superfine and life goes on (i'm sure it will), then we'd cut it. coz goodness, bitterheart it's time to be pragmatic. and restless hands, won't you do something else?

you don't even need to understand this.not even complicated.

and 1st dec lovers, happy birthday =)

purr.

2009-11-26T10:42:00.002+08:00

i was sooo fine with you being my bulk. then now i'm thinkin you could just be excess.but i hate it. soo much.

and i hate what i'm doing now too.

hownowmrcuriosity?

november rain

2009-11-21T01:22:00.002+08:00

after maybe jungle years, i chatted with radthinkinboy. i said hello. and he said peculiar. i was thinking about you a few minutes ago. so i asked what about. he went weirdthingy. don't ask. it's not flattering. ok of course i'd wanna know right.then he said he saw this girl in shorts in the bus and got reminded of me. and he's like what's that girl up to these days.

girl in shorts. me. radthinkinboy.
hmmmmmmm.

omg random nights. damn awesome.

i hope you dance

2009-11-20T10:11:00.004+08:00

they actually took adam brody's pic away coz i was inactive.wth.ok anyways, yesterday marks the end of school for the year. not officially though, still have a couple of meetings next week. but yeah, 0.5 done. 2.5 to go. :)

pretty eventful start. got waaypissed on some days. laughed too much on others. at the end of the day, i chose this path. so i'll live and enjoy every moment of it. even though sometimes it makes me so cranky. one thing i learnt though, if people give you shit, just relax. chill dulu. tak perlu get angry & pekik-pekik. outcome will be worse. and let it out to your friends. don't keep :)

biar orang buat kita lah yer.

so last day of school, we took pics. yang tak datang, too bad.and i cannot believe some of the naughtiest boys in my classes hugged me.yes. naughty boys. hurrrr.

hantus kecik

hantus paling hantu

the best hantus.

sayang.

rocket.

2009-10-25T16:41:00.005+08:00

highlight of my rubbish-filled week.

dear yuna, i love you, your tudung, everything about you. hahaha! and i love adil, your drummer. thanks.

dear mocca, i love you people too. you guys sooo did not make me pening.

dear you, i'm leaving.

and hey hey you you, i don't like your girlfriend!

diam seh shikin. but i swear.

bye!

not right

2009-10-20T09:15:00.001+08:00

yes, the supposedly indifferent me wrote that yesterday.

now i feel like a total asshole.

right.

2009-10-19T13:47:00.005+08:00

d.mo pernah nyanyi life is round. one moment you're down in the dumps, and the next, u cannot stop laughing. wad more when u kept watching taufiq's video with the shakers. Hahaha. that's soo him. and he'll be back! rolling good time coming soon. but bestest part of all, Zah's coming back early december!!! zomg. how amazing the feeling. can't wait to be reunited. and make an ass outta ourselves. and simpanging. and hyperventilating at every single male. haha.

it's not that i'm extremely elated about what has come around but then again, i won't lie lah. it got me sniggering and smiling to myself the whole night. oh let me be miss bitch for once. it's about time this stops isn't it. and it's about time other people have their laughs.yes blind toads, "If someone betrays you once, it’s their fault; if they betray you twice, it’s your fault."-Eleanor Roosevelt, so open your eyes and see what life has in store for you, coz right now, what you're having is prettay rotten.just your dumbluck, foo.get up and walk away.

whatdahype

2009-10-03T22:06:00.007+08:00

it's been soo long since i have a proper update i'm really getting so tired of my blog already. sch's oookay i guess. term 4's moving waaay too fast. i'm tired everysingleday and i'm scared of how my kids are gonna fare for their final papers. yikes. fighting!

i recalled someone saying this to me "it's time to make yourself happy". kinda woke me up a bit. but what if you are happy only when people around you are happy? as much as i hate it, i can't just leave people in the lurch. even.if.my.efforts.go.down.the.drain.time.and.time.again. sigh, nak buat apakan?cuma sedih lah kalau di saat engkau diperlukan, aku hampaaaaaa (bak kata akak ziana)

ok malas nak go into detail.what happened yesterday, is, stale news. :)

my whole bunch of lovers, i miss you all. i miss ME time too. boo hoo hoo. :(

ok this is how u shd pose for raye peektures...

macam dah tak kuasa nak jalan lagi. kita meet up dinner ke chilleks je ah geng? heeeeehh.

ok bye. satu hari nanti k. much love.

i cannot wait to scream.

BAHAHA

2009-09-28T17:56:00.007+08:00

idiot.

2009-09-14T00:20:00.000+08:00

apa khabarnya pujaan hatiku?

kau champion.

2009-09-09T01:02:00.003+08:00

great. you shytebrains deserve each other.

thank Almighty.

thanks friends for the news. it's just gawdsmackingawesome to be treated like your disposable undergarments. go bask in your socalledlovefilled life.

memang yang pathetic nyer aku per. sekarang ah. sekarang aku.

oh by the way, bala kau lagi satu sekarang cari aku. turn by turn. hebat.

ok ah. dendam boleh remove. kaki boleh jalan. kita pergi tempat baru.
bye.

siap ah. mummy pukul muka kau sampai pecah.

heh main-main jer. mummy ni tak violent.

chibs

2009-09-07T00:51:00.002+08:00

cuba kalau aku takde ke
aku jadi jahat.

untuk romeo

2009-08-30T03:57:00.004+08:00

sudah terang lagi bersuluh
kau memang manusia bodoh
abeh aku ni pulak sikit pei bebal
selalu nak layankan kau punya hal ehwal

dah berkali-kali kau mainkan aku
si minah ni pun satu
kesian, kesian ah, kasi chan
kena ultimate bomb, sekarang dah menyesal

takde harapan konon
kau ingat aku nak percaya lagi?
dah berbuih mulut aku dol
nampak gayanya, kau nak kena taik lagi :)

sekarang kau rasa aku patut buat apa?
masih nak tolong? lend a crying shoulder?
dah takde gunanya pun apa aku kata
jadi aku rasa, buat bodoh je lah yer?

ok
aku try ah.
besok.

ni geram ni.
geram.

p.s: sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh je tanah juga. tanah. dah bagus tu jatuh kat tanah.buat lagi ah. aku bilang kau, kau terus jatuh kat taik.yes, shit. try ah.kalau taik aku tanak tolong. memang padan muka.

2009-08-29T13:30:00.000+08:00

this is pathetic seh.
really.

to the left, to the left.

wizard

2009-08-22T22:36:00.003+08:00

JUNO
You know, I've been thinking. I'm
really sorry I was such a huge bitch
to you. You didn't deserve that. You
never deserve any of the poo I unload
on you.

BLEEKER
You know it's okay.

JUNO
Also, I think I'm in love with you.

BLEEKER
What, you mean as friends?

JUNO
No, for real. I think you are the
coolest person I've ever met. And
you don't even have to try.

BLEEKER
I try really hard, actually...

JUNO
No, you're naturally smart. You always
think of the funniest things to do.
Remember when you passed me that
postcard during Spanish class, and
it was addressed like, "Junebug
MacGuff, Row 4, Third Seat From the
Blackboard"? And it said, "I'm having
fun in Barcelona -- wish you were
here"? That was hilarious.

BLEEKER
I was just bored. I only think school
is awesome like, 80% of the time.

JUNO
Plus, you're the only person who
doesn't stare at my stomach all the
fucking time. You actually look at
my face. And every time I look at
you, the baby starts kicking me super
hard.

BLEEKER
It does?

Juno presses Bleeker's hand against her belly.

BLEEKER
Wizard!

JUNO
I think it's because my heart starts
pounding when I see you.

BLEEKER
Mine too.

JUNO
Basically, I'm completely smitten
with you, and I don't care if I'm
making an ass out of myself right
now, because you've seen me make an
ass out of myself a million times,
and you still want to be my friend.

BLEEKER
Well, yeah. You're the best friend
I've ever had, even when you're being
kind of evil.

JUNO
That's all I need from you. That's
more than I could ever ask for. You're
just golden, dude.

BLEEKER
Can we make out now?

JUNO
Okay.

yer. i just watched juno. loved.it.

wicked. :)

http://www.imsdb.com/scripts/Juno.html

mamamullet

2009-08-20T23:51:00.001+08:00

so,
what did you do today?
what did you do to me today?

fine lah. my bad. you win k.
you win.

i miss bali.
i miss carefree.
:(

2009-08-16T16:25:00.003+08:00

eightyplusmessagesinaday.silly things.

hari ini kau datang riang... la la la

can't wait for tonight.

woooo!

minah (dah) gumuk.

And love ..
Such a silly game we play
Like a summer's day in May.
What is love, what is love?
I just want it to be love
oooh.. :)

riot oi.

2009-07-30T00:26:00.003+08:00

i shan't put the blame on anyone.
but me.
this is my incompetence.
my problem.
i'll work on it.
and it better be soon.
insyaAllah.
come on shikin!!!!

aku punya motivator dah menunjukkan perangai lama. oleh itu, inginku katakan, sukatti ye.
sila hantar email atau sms jika kamu ingin memberikan ku semangat atau kata-kata perangsang setiap kali aku memerlukannya. no macam pahamers allowed.

nak berikan makanan pun aku terima.

terima kasih jelah ye.

a while.

2009-07-26T18:00:00.003+08:00

i'm so saddened by the passing of yasmin ahmad. first it was MJ. then now her. 2 extremely talented beings. now gone. their work incomplete.the world mourns and now,begin to appreciate. hopefully there's someone out there able to make movies and adverts just as good as yasmins'. the ones that show real in your face situations albeit attracting controversy, but really pull the heartstrings.al-fateha yasmin ahmad. sepet was awesome :)

life's been good. i am happy. i've no boyfriend. i have fab friends, in singapore and australia HAHA. my family's awesome. i love everyone.

no hot gossips, yet.

and we're doing great babe.
just like this.

and ya. aku memilih.
so?

shhh. hidung bawang jangan cakap.

gasp.

2009-07-12T22:00:00.002+08:00

i haven't written in soo long i forgot what's been happening in my life. time's moving waaay too fast lah, seriously. the good being, 3 years boleh habis dengan cepat. hehe. i think i've got a plan in mind on what to do after this. but i'll need to save up. like really save up. and, i'll have to accept the fact that i might not settle down so soon. hurhurhur. but i think i'll be happy. insyaAllah. we'll see how it goes. and the parents too. haha. oh wells. this is THE plan for now. :)

ok so what's up? if you really wanna know, i'm full-fledged already. alhamdulillah.so far so good. adapting, still sane.convo's in 2 days. daymn excited about it. but the mood's gonna fluctuate, coz bestie's leaving the next day. soo happy for you but urgh!maintain k kakaks. haha.

had a blast during the last minute surprise chalet.then ate way too much this week. makan luar here, makan luar there. now my perut like damn sexy ah flabbonch like that. gasak lah eh. can't even be bothered to do crunches or whathaveyousthat'llmakeyouskinnyscrawny.bleargh.

you know i was looking thru old photos. it's funny how events take a turn. like you never knew you'd be close to the people you are with right now. right? what made you choose them anyway? what made you leave the rest? do you still wish for things to happen with someone? do you think you'd be somewhere with someone else?

dulu abang cakap, soal hati ni, susah lah nak cakap. memang betul pun.

ada dia yang nak naik kuda. biarpun lambat, tapi dia sampai in style. tu dia yang kata. kita senyum je kan.

ada dia yang... sigh. so honest. tapi everything he did in the past were just sooooo wrong. but i sooo wanna know more. gatal.

then ada dia yang, bertepuk sebelah tangan. tepuk. tepuk. tepuk.

ok bye.

2009-07-05T17:27:00.003+08:00

loved

tangled up

2009-06-24T18:38:00.003+08:00

no, it's not that i've fallen for you.

it's just that i'm comfortable.

Dr. Meredith Grey: At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

:) me likes grey's quotes. a lot.

balibong

2009-06-16T14:51:00.002+08:00

i'm always awed by nature. thus, going to bali really gave me a hakuna matata effect, albeit only for three days. such breathtaking serenity. and of course, the wonderful people. our guide on the second day was beyond nice we were all moved to tears when we parted ways. he's just so sincere and honest, i pray for nothing but the best for him and his family.god bless them.

that's us. we did sweeeeeet for first-timers.

and that's nora. nah, i'm changing my alterego's name. shashabiols?muahahaha. what's a true holiday without a pic by the beach, yes? the sun, sand, sea. perfect. this time round it's even better. i saw both sunrise and sunset. whhhhheeeee.

pics are really not with me. i maha malas nak take pictures. was capturing em in memories (macam paham). but nothing beats the romantic-ness of it all i.e. that dinner by the beach at jimbaran (swooooooooons) and of course feeling on top of the world looking down to gawdawesome indian ocean. cantik sampai tak tahu apa nak cakap.

ok dah. maybe i'll post more. maybe not.

mau rokok kretek?

foolish games

2009-06-04T00:41:00.003+08:00

well, excuse me

guess i've mistaken you for somebody else

somebody who gave a damn

somebody more like myself

i had foolish games on repeat mode since i walked out of school, all the way to the bus stop, in the bus and all the way home. awesome song i must admit. jewel is just priceless.

you know how sometimes you get so hooked on something. wasn't "love at first sight" to begin with. but it just grows on you?that's exactly the relationship between me and you. you and you and you. don't bother asking. i might not necessarily be talking about humans. ;P

anyways, holidays are already here for me. dates anyone? hurhurhur. the sucky thing bt being in this line is your working friends are not having their breaks like yours, unless they want to of course. but priority's always given to those with families. so friends, how about building families alreadyyy? ha.

k. i'm sleeping early tonight. waking up late tomorrow. msn's sooo boring. thank god the queen entered for a while HAHA. tabik tantawi wa kasi sama lu. and i kinda miss the daily "so what random thing you did today" question.

so, what random thing did you guys do today?

live.laugh.love. (inspired by ellen)
shikin

gawd you're delusional.

and guess what? i'm unleashing Nora. bye shikin.

macam lama tak dengar kan.

2009-05-28T22:27:00.004+08:00

perasaan aku?

happy. i am really,really proud of you.but i'm gonna miss you sooo much. :( boleh nangis sebaldi seh. tahan beb, maintain. esok rabak. confirm.

perasaan aku?

dah tawar hati dah. dah tak kuasa pun nak beri pendapat atau kata-kata semangat. last-last dektu jugak yang kau pilih per. nama dia jugak yang kau sebut-sebut. buang masa aku aje.

perasaan aku?

entah. aku tahu niat kau baik (sebab pernah kena coloured). tapi tak payahlah semasa kau keluar dengan dia pun nak text aku. hairan bin ajaib. kelakar seram pun ada.

perasaan aku?

penat tapi excited. orang kata ghairah ah. part mengajar je. seminggu perhatikan mereka. insyaAllah aku yakin. tentang takde life ke apa semua, tu hal ehwal masing-masing. yang penting, sabar.

and go. lepaskan frust menonggeng kau tu. lepaskan bad stress. pressure tak perlu simpan sorang-sorang. yang rugi pun nanti engkau juga. kalau stress tu ringan-ringankan lah tangan call/sms aku, ajak keluar makan ke. tapi tak semestinya aku layan. mungkin kalau kau nak belanja makan, aku on. ;P

anyways, semalam best. dah lama tak keluar and have sooo much fun. on a wednesday night lagik. terharu tengok keakraban dorang bertiga.walaupun semua dah berpunya. (eh macam ryhme). "members" aku? hah. tak usah lah cakap. buat malu aje.

oklah aku dah penat nak fikirkan apa-apa yang membelenggu fikiran aku ni.

oh lagi satu. aku suka tau budak-budak ni. they're sooo innocent. i mean it's pretty obvious we'll know their names right. like hello, they have name tags. this P-satu boy cakap dengan aku tadi...

him: cikgoo, how you know our names?
me: i have special powers.
him: given to you by..?
me: God.
him: Allah?
me : nods and :)

cute kan? haha.

bye.besok yawn sampai pukul empat. lepas tu shiokalicious.

perasaan kau pula?

2009-05-24T03:59:00.002+08:00

shit. i'm so incompetent.

go away

2009-05-20T00:21:00.003+08:00

just when i thought i'd be soo ready, mentally prepared for what the next stage in life has to offer for me, i was punched in the guts. mind you, i've gotten over the fact that we have to report starting next week as crappy as that may sound. but now this. seriously. no offence but, oh god.what the fark are you guys doing up there man?

sigh. i can just go on and on and on.

others have it worse so MOVE ON.

p.s:happy birthday sis and cousin!

last, last. fuck ah.

apa hitam, terbang dan patut mati?

2009-05-18T02:25:00.001+08:00

i think they'd have to amputate my left leg. if not, my left littlest toe.

damn you stupid flying icky icky thing of a cockroach.

peeple

2009-05-11T02:41:00.003+08:00

i am still up at 2.42 am. yippee! i'm gonna read a book next. anyways i can't stop peeing. and i have a full blown tummy oredi. thanks to carbonara. awesomeness. godknows how many plates i had in April. some even after midnight. great shikin. good job. now you panic. ok not really ah. depressed sikit jer.

anyways i love the fact that i'm not schooling tomorrow. can spend the day with ajiqo the nephew.laze around. golek here golek there.make a nuisance of myself. then petang tido. then bangun watch suci, then abang andrin yummylicious after that. crycry watching saerah fuuh! best. i love this kinda life. then bonus kalau money just come in every month, without fail. i wish eh. manalah saudagar aku tu. tak muncul muncul. tengah shapekan goatee ke bang? hurr.

my 10+1 weeks of practicum ended. berhooraylah aku sekarang.
next hurdle: three years babe, 3 years. God give me strength, patience, and lots of ideas. memories. good, bad, funny ones. above all, love eh? next phase in life. again, don't hope too much.

was told about a junior of mine from sec school who passed away last friday. bike accident. i saw his FB and cried reading what his friends wrote abt him. i don't know him and i already felt a loss. imagine what his friends might feel man. and to think a few days before, he wrote that he was actually thinking of selling his bike. innalillah wainnaillahirajiun. Semoga dicucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya. Amin. My AlFateha and doa for you bro. ride and drive safe people.

it's scary isn't it? and he added yes, it is. even scarier when you're not ready for it. in my mind, i was like... there he goes agaaaiinnn, belittling the fact that it's true. it's so damn true. and it's so so scary.

ok i might read. or not. it's three. fiction by the way. "The Inheritance of Loss". pretty apt. lovely phrases. indian author. pandai berbual. pandai belit.biasa jugak.aint a stereotype. daymn true.tak happy duduk atas ah. atas kambing.

ok bye.
how pathetic.why'd i do that for?

2009-05-04T23:14:00.003+08:00

are you user-friendly?

felt used? too many times?
then yes, you are.

it's time for payback.
hit em where it hurts.
you soo know their weakest points by now.
hurr.

or wait for karma.
lily allen's smile in the background.

tak faham aku.

randomblings

2009-05-02T02:20:00.002+08:00

finally i saw danish with his eyes open just now. babies are so adorable. scared myself shit watching Jangan Tegur. da soundeffects should stoppit. and the rasuk parts are so scary it's awesome. yeah i freaked out. thumbsup to my shayang (pierre) wahahaha. much better than congkak and jpb. much.

then had steamboat with family. lunch at eighteen chefs. fuuh hari ni i think i gained 3 kg. did i tell you briyani ayam zam zam at 9pm yesternight? ok that is 1 kilo added already. then tomorrow, most prolly, pastamania, normal favouritest carbonara with lotsa tobasco sauce damn i'm salivating oredi. again, 1 more kilo. baik.

anyways the "breakup" didn't happen. he said to remember the torturous night he put me thru as "THE NIGHT". suka hati kaulah. sadly, it didn't happen then. but i think we're moving towards it. damnradicalthinking.

ok if a guy tells you where he'll be the next day and what he's gonna do there, he probably wants you to be there as well. if you don't turn up, his life goes on. if you do turn up, he'll be soo surprised to see you there. padahal he's the one who told you where he'd be. ni case dua-dua gatal.really.

where am i getting at? i have no idea. told ya i'm random.

and i'm sexcited as hell waiting for the outcome to all this. u know they say you need a bigger lie to cover the lie u made in the first place. no. this is not it. it doesn't involve lies. it involves you. and just plain nothing.at all. n-o-t-h-i-n-g. i'm taking a backseat watching. been a one(or two) man show all along.lets see how the saga continues.

aaanyways, diyana bte mohamad. (there, i said ur name)

bye!

not twitter twit twit

2009-04-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

end of april. can you believe it. haiyo i'm getting old. long weekends and you'd think i'd be out enjoying my night away. hell, I THOUGHT I was gonna be out enjoying my night away. lets just say i'm tired of hoping and expecting already. whatever comes, comes. whatever doesn't, then just f it for a jiffy and move. seriously, life's too short to keep getting disappointed. ohblardyblardy.

anyways, five more working days. as much as i cannot wait for the break, i am really gonna miss them. and the so called break, seriously, excursions,talks,whatnots and such? seriously? wastetime man. but looking forward to the SAF visit though. yippeee abangs abangs!

the body is craving for good gigs.
as of now, looking forward to 26th july. not a gig but it sure as hell will be awesome.if i pergi. hehe.

ok bye.
dah malas.

2009-04-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

oh my god
oh my god
oh my god
he's "breaking up" with me.

aku nak muntah

sore throat

2009-04-25T01:02:00.002+08:00

ok time check. 1 am. i'm the only one awake in the room. all lights are off, only light coming from my laptop. it's bothering me that i've been hearing cries since five minutes ago. baby's cries.

omg here it is again. louder lagik. ayo. shit.

chill ah people. haziq bam bam's in the house. anak sedare aku ler.

ok bye.

reunited and it feels so good.
ok not reunited.
but it sure as hell feels so good.

bangun jam dua petang esok. best.

sit still

2009-04-19T05:07:00.003+08:00

yes, it has been a while. time's moving so fast we really need to sit down and take a breather.it's the weekends people come on.

quite a number of coincidences actually. yup, watching the same movie. then again, who wouldn't watch 17 again? it's awesome. zac's really matured he's more yummeh now. and the lines are Fab i tell you. we literally laughed out LOUD.sweetbabyyesus. then what? i was thinking of what you were thinking. food-wise. gawd i'm hungry. how long was the last one? haha. then it started raining, when we were just talking abt how humid the weather is.sudden downpour. ambik kau ubat. kesejukan pagi-pagi ni. habis tu, same old shit dejavus all over again. kept absorbing it. don't bring up the past can? of course. about you, definitely. though those few minutes were superb. but then eh, it's been happening. far too many times. can't possibly not bring it up. from now, no more. you can. you all cannot.bluek.

break it. the code. break it.

karaoke tadi was stupendouslyawesome. sing-along sessions with oldschool. read: di pintu syurga,top of the world, sekadar di pinggiran. classic.

now mr angelina jolie dah balik ke belum?

one23fourfivesixseveneightninetenth

2009-04-11T13:42:00.002+08:00

for one, i'll be more nonchalant and aloof than tuwenty-two.

trust.

three better be kickass.